its night time now and today was tiring. well the good parts are that i was able to see her walk by at school. she was really pretty and i wanted to chase after her to talk to her but…what is that going to do? its just going to make things hard. i’m still thinking about our relationship like what i told her and everyday i just want to call her and tell her that i want to be with her :( then again, i did call her today and everything went well until towards the end of our phone conversation. she started to get annoyed and i got a little annoyed too. i’m happy that she’s going out and having fun with friends. i want her to experience that and i’m here watching over her and preparing myself to be with her forever. i love her a lot and i care about her so much but as of right now she’s not able to see or feel that. today was a really tiring day because i had to wake up early for school and then i had work. i think about her every single day and i just wish that everything will work out and we’ll both be happy :) goodnight
i thought about her a lot today, wishing i could be back with her and to be next to her but i know its not the right time. i don’t want to just rush and get back with her because then we’ll probably get into an argument and she’ll probably won’t be happy with me. i assume that she’s having fun because she went out with one of her close friend and and when we saw each other. she was happy with what i told her. i can’t wait for that day to come where i’ll be right infront of her and telling her lets continue where we stopped. i am willing to make her fall in love with me, even if it takes forever :) i’ve been having positive thoughts and i hope it stays that way. lets see how my days going to be…
i really miss her a lot. i can’t wait to hold her and make her happy for the rest of her life :) well for now i still need to think about myself and see how i really want my life to be.
hello there, its been about 3 days from the day my girlfriend and i broke up. i’m not really good at blogging or writing but i thought this will be a good way to express my feelings and thoughts. so i was with my girlfriend for about 3 years and if we were still counting months as anniversary, yesterday would’ve been our 1 year and 1 month anniversary. Instead of spending time with her or making things up between each other. i was actually at a big birthday party for my friend bob and i have to say, i was drunk but now shit faced. it was fun and everything went well, but when i woke up today. i felt sad and i tired to feel happy for all the excitement we had yesterday but i was able to just push everything aside and think about her. i’m not trying to be like those guy who are crazy about there ex girlfriend but i’m just trying to say that i really miss her. we argue about a lot of lots of different things and one of them is the way i am. she does not accept me for who i am as of right now. i do smoke, drink, go out late, and i’m always busy. (i am a full time college student and i work.) Well, when we were still together, it didn’t bother me whether how long i was spending time with my gf as long as i get to see her and spend time together. We both have different schedules and we both have different expectations. then again, people do say that opposites attract hahaha. i really don’t know what to do…. i was on her tumblr and i look at her new pictures she posted up, at that point i really missed her and i wanted to just see her and hug her. it made me happy to see that she was happy but then again she could be just putting up a face.. i do want to call her to see how is she but that’ll only make things hard for her. i’m planning to writing in her every single day to just talk about what i’m going through. i’m sorry for those who DO read this and think this is dumb. i just think that this will help me in some way. WELL, i have to go now. .
